Expectations are nothing but our own myths..myths for future,myths for a beautiful life n i am over with it...I never felt this way..i am completely a different person now i start hiding myself from everyone..i am struggling with words to speak...from my heart n soul i want to end this miserable life..every new day is a punishment for me..that i am still alive..i wish 1 day i sleep at night n then will never got up again...aah that will be good for me n for everyone...i am tired really very tired..my mental condition is getting worse day by day seems i am loosing control over myself day by day...blames go beyond the limit n am not able to deal with it anymore..i put a pillow on ma face n i cry as loud as i can but still everything is same..nothing gonna change n nothing gonna be okay.i always thought may be everything will be okay n it will take time but now i believe totally that its a lame dream...i am always this lame i just think of something good but that never ever turn into reality.
I will soon end this race cause i am already a looser...how long i will survive? today or tomorrow i am gonna get tired..their is no way out...am i able to deal with this ever...i don't know..i wish i could scream loudly or cry loudly n nobody can hear me....i don't know what i am searching...life is good sometimes and sometimes its like hell..but what to do have to deal with it...so now i started a new thing..i started to bunk...yaah right bunk...i bunk sad moment, i bunk bad thoughts and yes crying sessions too..see the point is when you cry nobody gives u support n wen you laugh then too same situation...so why spend time in crying..so i am just chilling...chilling in my own thoughts..n spend time with myself as the time we are living now wont come back ever again..so better live it feel it..
I will soon end this race cause i am already a looser...how long i will survive? today or tomorrow i am gonna get tired..their is no way out...am i able to deal with this ever...i don't know..i wish i could scream loudly or cry loudly n nobody can hear me....i don't know what i am searching...life is good sometimes and sometimes its like hell..but what to do have to deal with it...so now i started a new thing..i started to bunk...yaah right bunk...i bunk sad moment, i bunk bad thoughts and yes crying sessions too..see the point is when you cry nobody gives u support n wen you laugh then too same situation...so why spend time in crying..so i am just chilling...chilling in my own thoughts..n spend time with myself as the time we are living now wont come back ever again..so better live it feel it..
