Who to blame

Who to blame once cheater is always a cheater giving them a chance is always a mistake noted for life..

Where ever I go my thoughts won't leave me alone...for people everything is so easy everything is so casual,it's just stuck in my head.. I'm a mess for trusting people...I won't ever open my heart in my life to anybody... people deserve hate that's it...now I know just hate...tears n emotions has no value...I won't ever trust again...I won't ever forgive the person I shed tears for...you will pay for it,you will pay for what you did to me..you won't ever be in peace...this will haunt you for lifetime that you ruined somebody's life.

Everything is a lie n I feel like a fool again why cant I get loyal people in my life...is it that hard... I'll die like this...I just wanna die its just out of my control.....why I always get hurt n nobody's bothered... cruel so cruel

Do i have a dream

She asked me what's my dream and I said I don't have any dream..she kept quiet and start to tell a story but I was not listening carefully so I could not understand properly only remember the end of it,she said don't say you don't have any dream it hurts my heart...that made me think do I need to have one I gave up on dreams long time back how can I suddenly find a dream for me...I always wanted a simple life watering plants, cooking taking care of people around me and complete my recipe book which is still incomplete,but I could not do any of it n just started to become a part of crowed like everyone else out there...dream what dream I should left with now..I lost chances to have dream now..slowly slowly I got to know how life is..earlier I used to think if I don't hurt anybody then I won't get hurt either n it will be peaceful for me to just spend my life with no problems..I never thought I will cry this much..today like older time I cried most of the time of the day n tried to hide most of the time...

Something

We actually know most of the things,results,reasons which will be given later but we hold it in just to see may be may be this time it will not be disappointing or devastating...but choosing colors over black seems a mistake.....my life is always being dark and coming out of it is always a mistake so that is the reason I don leave this darkness completely cuz that's how it is...I can't fight with it..I can't win now....starting today I give up on happiness and going back to old self...not seeing others ignoring existence of people n just moving ahead aimlessly...my heart is always made fool of me this time damage is worse then ever as I was hopeful... humiliating life again....I always said best is yet to come let's change the phrase worse is yet to come...

죽고 싶다

I couldn't do anything just saw everything got ruined..I can't share this to anyone,I thought I can stop crying but I cant...I start to remember every single word and it just breaking my heart more. I wish I could just die right here...I wish I could give life to smone who really want to live unlike me...

Start of useless day...I am walking it feels I am not alive anymore...I can't see faces feels everyone is mocking me n laughing at me...it become embarrassing to move out...

Now I wanna disappear enough chances given in this life...its embarrassing n disappointing to step outside the world....I need to find a way soon...